Sleep: The Unattainable Dream

I’ve been gambling with sleep for awhile now. I hadn’t realized how much I intentionally did so, until I gave birth to another child. At that point, sleep became a gift I no longer controlled.

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And I missed it.

Desperately.

Oh, my missing it didn’t happen right away. First, I snapped at everyone. Then, I cried. I cried a lot. Next, I snapped and cried. Everyone and everything was wrong wrong wrong. Couldn’t they see how much the mess and my feelings were their fault??

So, I made sleep a priority. I snuck in naps wherever I could, even at the expense of cleaning. To help block out the light and sound of no one else sleeping, I set a pillow over my head. I set my phone’s timer for 45 minutes so I wouldn’t nap too long -then I’d often sleep another hour after it went off.

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Slowly, slowly, the world wasn’t so horribly awful.

Actually; the world brightened up right away. It stayed bright once the newborn baby slept better and I could get sleep more consistently.

Hormones also play a HUGE role, of course. I need to remind myself of that as well. Sleep alone, however, was and is helpful enough that I highly recommend it.

If you are in The Newborn Phase, The Teething Phase, or even The Have Children Phase; don’t get caught in the trap of insomnia like me. Step back and take inventory of how many trips to deep REM you’re taking. There’s only so many times you can neglect your health, so many cups of coffee you can drink.

Trust me. Zzzzzzzz

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©2020 Chelsea Owens

*As a parting note, there are way too many stock photos of women ‘sleeping’ in full makeup. That is gross, and no one actually does that.

Time for Baby

I don’t know why
I thought to sleep
or

I don’t know why
I thought to sweep
and

I am not sure
When I will eat
or

I am not sure
When I will pee
and

I can’t think when
A movie I’ll see
or

I can’t think when
I’ll put up my feet
for

I forgot how
Much that he needs
and

I forgot how
To have a baby.

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©2020 Chelsea Owens

You Might Have a New Baby If…

You might have a new baby if:

  • Every room has decorative accents of burp cloths, diaper supplies, and pacifiers.
  • Conversations are held in whispers and gestures.
  • Time becomes “a day without a night and a night without a day.”
    Or, if you’d rather, “a hard day’s night.”
  • Random baby items like socks or Onesies show up in every load of laundry. They’re not always ones you recognize.
  • You call everyone in the family “You” or the baby’s name. Sex doesn’t matter.
  • Sex doesn’t matter.
  • While you’ve worn the same pair of pants for days, the baby ends up ‘wearing’ whatever looks passable by bedtime.
  • Dinner is now served to the hit song “It’s My Evening and I’ll Cry if I Want To.”
  • Holding the baby becomes both a reward and a threat.
  • Everyone’s voice has become higher-pitched, and their words end with “ootchie.”
  • No one seems to mind any of this

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©2020 Chelsea Owens

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